Friday, July 3, 2015

A dunk into my pensieve – a reflection on my first 2 years of medical school and a quarter century of life


Here beats a riddle in metric perfection:
A pooling of water in moldable vase,
Ivory frosting to layer on settling cake,
The tabula rasa awaiting its trace.
Half-baked clay, a bubble catching breath,
An anxious snowball hopped on down a rolling hill,
 This lonely grain of sand’s asleep in lustrous jacket.
Here’s pen hovering over paper, hands on clay,
A wind-hungry sail ready to take course.
Here breathes a brand new pair of scissors
That cut itself out from a plastic cell.

-Unknown

I’ve never been good at keeping a diary; indeed, I’d be the first to admit that inconsistency is my greatest flaw. Thus, it is not at all surprising that my first reflection about medical school should be written nearly 2 years after the initiation of our blog, covering half of our entire tenure at Keck. Those 2 years though, those 730 days, I now realize have been some of the most powerful forces in shaping who I am. I’m typically not that person who likes to write about themselves at length, but I will try my best to capture this personal time span in the broadest way I know how. Take from it what you will; just like anything that happens in life, it is not meant to be a teaching point, some kind of universal lesson, but it is a significant experience in the short history of my life, and I hope that you can take something away from it. That’s it; disclaimer over.

Not a waltz but not a foxtrot either
I spent the majority of my first year of med school slipping in and out of a haze. It’s that feeling that you get when you’ve been anticipating something for so long that you become suspended in a surreal state once that moment, that something, arrives.
Like when you stumble through the finish line after months of marathon training, or when you finally

Saturday, June 13, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 60

#sadderdaynomore #puertoricobabyyy #toomanydrinks #sickoflounging #seaturtlescansuckit #neverneedajacket #frizzyhair #margaritastoostrong #100daysofunhappiness
Mansi and Sophia posting from Vieques Island, Puerto Rico! We have looked forward to this day for so long that it feels unreal being here, soaking up the rays and (on some days) having absolutely nowhere to be. The island life is such a stark contrast from our Step 1 studying, and it has truly helped to put our lives in perspective! The living here is slow and easy, and I've already twice been

Monday, June 1, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 59

#moanday #truth #thatopportunitycomesmore #thanonceinalifetime #identifythecopingmechanism #CAGEquestionhim #howifeel #100daysofunhappiness 


Sunday, May 31, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 Sadness

DAY 58

You make plans to go to a cafe to study, then go photographing around the Arts District. You order your over-priced coffee. You ask for the wifi password. They laugh. You cry.
#sobday #5dollarstoolatte #wasteofspace #0yelpstars #laughingunnecessary #zinccafe #izincyousuck #100daysofunhappiness

Saturday, May 30, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 57
Little sister's senior prom... I feel so old
#sadderday #oldernotwiser #stillconfusedforaHSsenior 
#haggard #100daysofunhappiness


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Friday, May 29, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 56
10 p.m. on a Friday night...
#cryday #alreadyagrandma #mustrechargefriedbrain
#bestpartoftheday #100daysofunhappiness
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Thursday, May 28, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 55

#tbt to six weeks ago....
#notmuchhaschanged #stillstep1struggling
#100daysofunhappiness
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Wednesday, May 27, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 54

Post-work out? Nope just ran to my car. 
#weepsday #exertionaldyspnea #SOB #studyblob #doesthinkingburncalories #differentdaysameclothes #100daysofunhappiness
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Tuesday, May 26, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 53
#bluesday #aintnobodygottimeforthis #doubleload
#mustwashsweatpants #100daysofunhappiness

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Monday, May 25, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 52

#moanday #howtolearnanatomy #notright #fecalmatteronmyarm #weareinelementaryschool #basedonmyknowledge #100daysofunhappiness
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Sunday, May 24, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 51 

 Clearly I did not get the message.....
#groanday #uworldisavirus
#accessdenied #thatbuzzfeedquizwillhavetowait 
#100daysofunhappiness
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Saturday, May 23, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 50
#saddestday #crouchingtiger #creepingmansi
#islandofknowledge #inthezone
#100daysofunhappiness 
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Friday, May 22, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 49

#cryday #whyyday #dontdieday #basiclifesupport #cprcertifiedbiyaaatch #howmanycompressionsagain #cantlistentoanother #30count #100daysofunahappiness
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60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 48

The caption for this quiz was literally "Don't get Joffrey". The description for my character result is "Sucks to be you". Thank you, Buzzfeed.

#hurtsday #worstday #kingjoffreylives #boardsarecoming #toturnmeintoamonster #ifonlyheknewaboutantidotes #gameofcrohns #killeverything #butsparetherectum #100daysofunhappiness 

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Wednesday, May 20, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 47
#weepsday #OSCEprep #elusivetricepsreflex #lookslikeshehittheulnar #skeptical #anotherhalfday #100daysofunhappiness

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60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 46
#bluesday #uncalledfor #takesonetoknowone #pejmonday #pejtuesday #cafheyyy #100daysofunhappiness

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60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 45
First Aid anNOOOtations
#moanday #riskofseizure #everythingishighyield #step1highlights #atleastapass #ifyouknowall600pages #100daysofunhappiness
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Monday, May 18, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 44

A tire that is as flat as my ego. Sorry this had to happen to you, Steph!
#sobday #aintnobodygottime #needtocarryfirstaidatalltimes #unprepared #howifeelafteraqbank #deflated #100daysofunhappiness

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Saturday, May 16, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 43

When your study buddy cheats on you and studies somewhere else...
#sadderday #evensadderday #uknowugotitbad #threwoffourgroove
#studyskank #stage4clingers #100daysofunhappiness


Friday, May 15, 2015

60 Days of Step 1 "Sadness"

DAY 42
Taco Bell speaks the truth....
#cryday #uworldisthediablo #willsellsoulforgoodstep1score
#100daysofunhappiness
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